A chicken sandwich, a cupcake, and a carton of milk..

1 cherry pastry (from school..not too unhealthy)- 200?
1 cartoon of fat free skim milk- 60
1 chicken sandwich- 200
and a chocolate cupcake with peanuts- 300
so...760 cals.. i need to burn some off, but i am not sure how to. i just want to cut again... thats way to many calories!!

so... i feel like messaging D on facebook, and telling him to get his ass over here. im tired of not talking to him and i feel like we left it off at a bad place. maybe not for him, seeing as how he brought some chick TO MY HOUSE the VERY NEXT DAY after we..you know..

ten minutes later..

1 more cut on my left wrist...i'm up to 8 there...one was a year ago...you can still see the scar.



<<<the big pink mark is a burn.









i am not putting a picture of my face on here..not yet. i'm not pretty...unlike a lot of you girls. i know most of you will turn into the beautiful models we all so adore...
The top red mark (the straight one, not the diagonal) is the one i am still trying to get to go deeper. it hurts to touch it, so i put water on it, stopping it from clotting, and am keeping it clean. oh god the rush is amazing..
i can't ever stop..the endorphine rush you get when you cut is one of the best things you can ever feel..it actually keeps it from hurting to bad. it makes me feel lightheaded and...happy. coupled with music and drugs...its gona be an intresting night. my friend is going to be staying, so i am going to hide my razor..
my razors pretty pathetic. i took apart a disposable razor and got the biggest blade from it. it dulls quickly. it doesnt cut deep eaither, but oh god, its just sharp enough to help me feel BETTER.