just because you say your done doesnt mean you really are..

im actually crying right now. sobbing. like a wimp. this goes against my whole policy of trying not to show emotion. I FUCKING HATE HIM SO MUCH!! i cant stand to see him ever again. i dont want him anymore, i swear. dear god just get him out of mind. make me stop caring, please?! please. i dont want this anymore. i knew he never wanted me, but now, knowing that he is in love with someone else...its to much to bear. i need to cut again. i dont want to see him again, hear his voice again. i swear to god, next time i see him, i WILL kick the shit out of that boy. i fucking hate him.